Here am I

So, here’s the news…

Teach Overseas has offered me the teaching position in Morocco! It seemed as if everything had really fallen into place, especially as I’ve felt that God really orchestrated all of this to work fluidly for His purpose. Unfortunately, I am unsure at the moment whether I’ll be accepting the assignment or not.

One main reason is the fact that this is a 2-year commitment, which means that I’ll be away for two solid years. Not that I’m not willing to go; I really do want to respond to wherever God places me with a “Here I am! Send me!” kind of response! But as I’ve thought and prayed about if this is the organization that I should serve with, there were a few bits of information that were brought to light when the offer was made that have made me hesitant. One was that I might potentially be teaching a 1st and 2nd combo class or a 2nd and 3rd combo class… In non-teacher terms, that means teaching first & second graders or second and third graders at the same time in one class! That definitely gave me something to think about. I know that the first year of teaching is generally the most difficult… let alone doing it overseas… let alone having to come up with two lesson plans per lesson to be taught… :/

Also, the amount of money that I would need to raise is almost double the amount than had originally been the estimate. I really want to be a good steward with the finances that others entrust to me, especially for significant amounts of money. I’m a little confused for what the funds will be going for, and, even though they sent me the official breakdown of financial information, it still didn’t explain where the support money would be going. I would be receiving a salary from the school in Morocco which would pay for housing and food, so the additional amount that I’ll be raising has me confused.

All that to say, that if you could keep this decision (and my life) in your prayers, I would appreciate it! I have known the power and provision that the prayers of my brothers and sisters can have and as such, covet your prayers in this choice. I know that the Lord will lead and I’ll follow - wherever that may be! I want to not be anxious in this decision, but rather make my requests and desires known to Him so that His hand can work through it all. I also know that there’s a time when I have to step out of the boat and act upon where I’m feeling called to go. So here I am, casting out my nets and seeing where they end up!

Whom shall I send? Who will go for me? To the ends of the earth, who will rise up for their King?
“Here am I, send me!”