To labor just for this, to hunger for a love like His… I give my heart and soul to live a life completely Yours, so Christ be formed in me, till I am nothing…
Let me be Your dwelling place till it’s You men see…
Christ be formed in me, till I am something...
Christ be formed in me, till I am something...
I’ve been wrestling with the question, “Why?” all week long. Why did my computer crash and ONLY lose the Pictures folder? Why is yearbook gone? Why is all this happening? What’s the POINT?
I believe that in everything, there is purpose and a plan. Our God is sovereign. Whether it’s known to us at the time, or it takes us a few years down the road to figure out, there is a reason for all things – the hard times develop our perseverance and strength, the troubling times allow us to find peace and solace with our Creator, the good times encourage us with joy and let us give the Lord salvation and praise!
...so what’s the point of a yearbook being destroyed?
Is it that Satan wants to test me some more? As if teaching in Uganda and having sketchy electricity, limited resources, slow/not working Internet, and stolen laptops in the last few weeks isn’t enough?
As I listened to those lyrics (above) from a song on the SLO Crusade cd this afternoon, I wondered, “Maybe the yearbook was a little bit too much of me and a little bit too little of God… Maybe it had become so much of MY project that I forgot Who I was really doing it for… Maybe I was so excited about creating this ‘perfect’ book and show off what I could create, that He decided to remind me, “It’s not about you.” ”
How often do we do this? We want something because of the acclaim and prestige we’ll get. I love love love volunteering for different activities I’m good at. But every once in a while (and probably should more often!), I have to step back, check in, and ask, “I’m not doing this for the fame, right? For the recognition? For the commendations and the awards? I really want to help out here, right?” Because for me, there is such a fine line between wanting to serve where there is a need and wanting to receive the credit for that work.
Is it that Satan wants to test me some more? As if teaching in Uganda and having sketchy electricity, limited resources, slow/not working Internet, and stolen laptops in the last few weeks isn’t enough?
As I listened to those lyrics (above) from a song on the SLO Crusade cd this afternoon, I wondered, “Maybe the yearbook was a little bit too much of me and a little bit too little of God… Maybe it had become so much of MY project that I forgot Who I was really doing it for… Maybe I was so excited about creating this ‘perfect’ book and show off what I could create, that He decided to remind me, “It’s not about you.” ”
How often do we do this? We want something because of the acclaim and prestige we’ll get. I love love love volunteering for different activities I’m good at. But every once in a while (and probably should more often!), I have to step back, check in, and ask, “I’m not doing this for the fame, right? For the recognition? For the commendations and the awards? I really want to help out here, right?” Because for me, there is such a fine line between wanting to serve where there is a need and wanting to receive the credit for that work.
Your prayers are such a blessing right now. Even as I type this, it's 6:30 pm and I'm still at school trying to get some picture files. (and again, thanks Randy!) I'm going to work hard and see how far we can get by the deadline next week. Please pray that this would be one to glorify the Lord and not me!!! ... and that it'll be done in time :)
Lord, you know the things I do. Lord, I know what You went through to pay a price I was due. So many times I have failed and every time Your mercy has not. Lord, I owe it all to you. I will praise You till my lips can sing no more, and I will worship for it’s what you made for! I will bow down, Lord, accept this offering: my life before you, for it’s all that I can bring.
~ “This Offering” ~ PLB
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